I seek to find the reasoning
that lets her stay in my mind
it's not a panic or a drop in pressure
just a drawn but unknown line
I know it's there, it's why I have to care
where it leads I have yet to find
to clean the mess made by a former self
when I declared her forever mine

young love is bullshit
you'll regret it forever
as I recount to you
my endless errors over false emotions and wasted time
she'll never know I grew
these mistakes are forever mine

when you're still learning
you just don't stop and think if this is right
you promise happy endings
in five years time it keeps you up all night
it never dawns that something else could happen
and you're suddenly staring at a world cracked open
it's a short sighted logic error
you'll move past it
but the best hope is the other person forgets it

jealousy is a careless fling
it makes you want what's never yours
and then it tells you everybody else thinks just like that
and that's another lie you tell yourself
makes you think you're better than everyone else
when you're doing the same shit they all do
and you never think it could happen to you
so when it does you're at a loss and what to do

I still, one day, hope we can let our paths cross
and she'll see how much I've grown
and I can say I gave it time like she said I should
and make me someone she'd be happy to know

but that's not how the world works
they never tell you words hurt
and band-aids of the soul won't fix the damage you dealt
it takes a living hell
to wrap around the truth
to evolve past youth
she'll never know I improved
these mistakes are forever mine